I was thinking that if things got worse in Australia, racism grew further, martial laws were imposed, violence against us escalated and life became daily suffering, I thought always that I still had safe country to go to.
Jordan was my country of living from the time I was 5 until I migrated to Australia. Jordan was neither democratic nor easy to live in, but was at least safe.
Except for the major massacres against Palestinian refugees in September 1970, Jordan was pretty calm and safe. Even during the cold war era, where almost all neighbouring countries suffered major unrest, military coups and revolutions, acts of violence and civil wars, Jordan was the most stable state there.
It was not until the Bush declaration of "war on terrorism" (which terrorism?) that anyone could imagine that such acts on this large scale could happen in Jordan.
The Jordanian government was highly cooperative with Bush's crusade"war on the world" for the last few years. But this war was notaccompanied by a war on poverty, unemployment and growing corruption.
So we saw the skyrocketing increase of poor people, unemployed and thedecrease of spending on social services. We also saw growing foreigndebts, and privitasation of almost all government-owned properties.
This was accompanied by a crack down on democracy, human rights andfree-speech (which was limited anyway before).
This was accompanied by the Jordanian government's complete silence on Israeli crimes against the Palestinians (we should remember that 60% of Jordanians are from Palestinian background). On the contrary, the Jordan government restored its normal diplomatic relations with Israel, indefiance of the Jordanians overwhelming majority's feeling of disgustfrom Israel's crimes.
This was accompanied by intensifying the policiesof Jordanisation of Jordan by getting rid of all Palestinian high-profile public officials and employees. This policy resulted in dividing Jordanian citizenship into 2: first class Jordanians and second class Palestinian Jordanians (as they call us).
But for the last few years, I saw racism grow strongly in Australia. And now I am sure too those Anti-Terrorism laws amendments will pass, which will result in more restriction to free speech and enforcement of martial laws. I am sure also that violence will increase against us.
But what to do?
The only other country I can live in was bombed today. Latest reports are of perhaps 60 people killed, 200 injured and civil unrest is growing there.
I am left with no other alternative but to resist. John Howard and his parrots (before he had one parrot namely Ruddock, but now has many including Iemma, Bracks, Keelty, Maroony...) know that they left us (since their alleged "war on terrorism" which included invading Iraq) with no alternative but to resist.
This time we are facing one question: to be or not to be.